Wednesday, July 22, 2009

A Dream

Last night I had a dream that I made a point to log in my dream database this morning. I don’t log them all but some of them kind of grab me.

In this dream, I was in a restaurant and wanted to buy a dessert for a young woman and her 12-year-old daughter who were sitting in the corner. I knew and loved these two people and they loved me but more in a family way than a sexual way. When I went over to their table, however, they ignored me. I decided they were deep in conversation or maybe the time wasn’t right and they wanted to be left alone, so I went back and made small talk about the weather with a waiter.

Then I went outside and ran into Lee Armen. (Lee, in real life, was one of my best friends throughout high school and college and for a few years after – then we lost touch. Several years ago a mutual friend told me had a died of stomach cancer. There is probably a whole blog to be written about Lee. Sometime).

Anyway, back in the dream, I’m glad to see Lee and we play catch with a odd-shaped fuzzy ball. Then I start to ask about his wife and remember that I had talked to her after I had learned of his death. I realize, in the dream, that he is dead and I ask, “So I’m dead then?”

“Yes,” he say.

“When? How? And how can this be true. Nothing seems any different?”

“Isn’t it obvious?” he answers.

And I realize that the woman and girl had not been just ignoring me but they couldn’t see me at all. But the clerk had talked to me. The realization was paralyzing! What my death meant was that I would never be able to have meaningful relationships but only be able to talk about trivial things to strangers. For eternity. I was clearly in Hell.

I turned around. Lee was gone. But looking over at the restaurant, the waiter was smiling blandly and waving at me. “Nice weather we’re having!” he shouted.

16 comments:

  1. That's quite the dream! It would really have freaked me out if I'd had it.

    Especially since I don't know Lee.

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  2. I think this sounds like a great television idea. These weird bent-time/magic-power things always make the cut and you could be very rich. (Actually it IS somewhat sad for a dream.)

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  3. Jesus!
    talk about facing your most basic fear - eternal aloneness

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  4. Is that something like sitting down at the computer everyday and typing away until you remember there is something you should have done 2 hours ago. Then we wonder where in the world did all the time go.
    QMM

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  5. Interesting post. When I read things like this about dreams I'm suddenly glad that I can rarely recall dreams and I'm sure that if I could I'd probably freak out! You're braver than I am, for sure!

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  6. dreams are really strange at times. well, we may as well say....at all times! glad you shared your dream.

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  7. Yikes, that one was a nightmare. Like Sylvia I rarely recall my dreams, and it's probably a good thing that I don't. lol Hopefully, your dreams will be more peaceful tonight.

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  8. I'm glad you posted this dream. I've actually had several dreams like this, not that I'm dead, but dreams where people in this life have passed over to the other side and I dream about them and while I'm talking to them I realize that they are dead. I always look at it as a sign that they are visiting me the only way they can.
    So, how are you feeling about it?

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  9. Freaky!

    I left you a thingy on mine....just because I love you and also because I want you to come visit and see what I've been up to this week, and I am a pushy female...Baggy pleaaaase come onnnnn...see :)

    xxx

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  10. Oh good grief! I would be mortified (morbidfied?) if I had a dream like that! And I probably wouldn't sleep for the following week aftaid that it would reoccur!

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  11. Great dream!

    So, pay attention to the people you love and tell all the people you love that you love them. I think that's the take home message here.

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  12. I'd be really worried if I had that dream. But I didnt't, so I'm glad. Thank you for making me happy! (Whew!)

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  13. Next time you dream be sure and take you camera. Hell for me would be no cameras in "?"

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  14. What if the people in the restaurant were the cats and the wife in the bedroom and Mark and Lee outside were you and the rotweiller sleeping on the couch? Once things returned to normal, you had a dream about it but people were substituted for the animals. Adding a new animal to the family after just reacquainting yourself with Jeannie, has been a stressful summer for you. Have a restful weekend. Yoga breathing, peace. xox

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  15. Whoa, that was a weird dream. Course what dream isn't weird? But a dream like that would definitely get to me.

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  16. I do dream of my parents sometimes, who've both passed... I usually imagine it is the way of the brain, to comfort us for their loss... And that Paga part of me thinks they've just come back to say hello...

    But that was a very scary dream, Sirs... And it would be lovely to hear about Lee some day...

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