Dear Blogspot Friends,
Bagman and Butler walked in on me unexpectedly the other day and caught me crying.
Of course, they didn't know exactly what to do. Bagman considered the Heimlich Maneuver. Butler started to design a database in order to run a statistical analysis on my feelings. Seeing their confusion, I made it simple and explained it.
"When I read everyone's comments on my blogs, I get humbled and frustrated because I want to reach out and hug everyone. I want to go to everyone's blog and write long letters to them telling them how much they mean to me. People tell me I'm funny and creative and a good photographer -- and those praises are so powerful because I've seen the blogs of all my blogspot friends and know how talented and creative and wonderful they are. I don't know how to 'thank you for your support' adequately."
BUTLER: "That's really nice, Mark. I'm sure the people who read and comment on your blog will be glad to know how much they mean to you."
BAGMAN: "Pfui! He sounds like a school girl who's just grateful that someone asked her out!"
BUTLER: "Leave him alone. Gratitude is a good thing!"
Anyhow, I wiped away my tears -- although I've never been really capable of crying so the tears were figurative and easy to wipe away. Although the feelings behind them, if they had been actual tears, are true. I really do feel humbled when people I admire and respect so much like things I post.
Because the feeling goes in the other direction as well. When I have the time -- which seems rarer and rarer every week -- I look at the posts of everyone who comments and the posts of everyone I follow -- and I am blown away by the quality of thought, perception, writing, photography that is out there.
Aw shucks -- I just love y'all so much.
BAGMAN: "I think I'm going to throw up."
BUTLER: "Then go do it someplace else, please. Mark's trying to be serious here."
So Bagman and Butler quietly left the room. I sat for awhile longer. Took a deep breath and started to explore all the incredible and interesting things that my bloggy friends around the world have been saying and doing today. But then my grandson woke up and it was time to re-enter my actual day to day life. And I'm grateful for that life too! It's just a shame that I can't be everywhere at once all the time.